Cuter than pretty much everything...

go there: http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/catsong.php

it is rather old, so some of you might already know it, but it is sooooo cute that i thought i'd just post it up here...

Singing Bird

This thing is actually a flash animation, but i honestly cant find the original source of it anymore.... if you know it by any chance, please, make sure to tell me - it's just hilarious :)

The Amish Deception Thing

Since the page with the story of the Amish abuse is currently down for maintenance, Here the direct link to the (long, but worthwile) story of an Amish family:

http://www.amishabuse.com/chapter1pg1.htm
Check it out if you have time on your hands, it is still rather shocking to read what happens without other people noticing...

Old news, apparently

As it seems (goodness, i am slow sometimes) the video of the Jesus Camp is a little bit older... and the camp shut down:

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/nationworld/2003365311_jesuscamp08.html

"The summer camp featured in the documentary "Jesus Camp," which includes scenes with disgraced preacher Ted Haggard, will shut down for at least several years because of negative reaction sparked by the film, according to the camp's director."

Well... was to be expected, sort of...

Jesus Camp

Thanks to Ben i have seen this really disturbing video. it is worth seeing though. There are two kids that play a major part in this video: Rachel and Levy.
Rachel is one of those kids you actually want to take away and brainwash her in a way that makes her forget the current brainwash. Big sympathy for her, she is already rather freak-ish, I wonder how bad it will be later on in her life.
Levy, the boy, on the other hand, is a different matter. Actually I sympathise with him. Yeah, he had to hold this preach etc etc, but he did it quite well, and I assume that, as long as you dont touch any religious matter talkwise, you can get along with him very well. Though hearing him say that when talking to non-christians something would be missing makes me feel sick again. Anyhow, it is an interesting flick - oh and i can also recommend actually clicking on the videos to see the comments, some of them are rather interesting...

Apparently someone started to bitch and caused youtube to remove the videos. if you happen to find them, feel free to note me :)

A chair is NOT a cool christmas gift.

Money and gift certificates have a really bad reputation regarding their use as christmas presents. Quite frankly, opposed to the general reputation, money, as a piece of paper with the same value but much more restrictive, gift certificates would be on top of my wish list right now. Normally i love reading good, intriguing books, and even more i love getting new gadgets for my pc or laptop - or for gaming. But if someone absolutely has no idea on what to get me, i am fine with appropriate gift certificates. Considering the fact that i mentioned that i'd quite like getting a wii, upgrade my computer or get a PS2 probably gift certs would have been the best options.

Today i got my christmas present. I was playing the piano when my parens rang the door, asking me to come down since they already had my present, but because it was so heavy and huge they couldnt hide it and wanted to give it to me today already - after i helped them carrying it up. I dashed down, hoping for... i dont know, hoping for the wii :) (but i think that one isnt really heavy) and when i arrived downstairs i saw two huge packages with... chairs.
I got a god damn chair.

And because it was a relatively expensive chair (well, we're not rich, so dont think of a diamond chair ;)) and because they said it this will be my only gift.

I think, it is about time (next February, early enough before my birthday) to tell them, that i dont want any pressies anymore. You anticipate so much, but.... well, my brother usually gets what he likes, game boys, now a nintendo ds, loads of lego, some electronic stuff........ the only electronic device i got was a mega drive II back in the days and a tiny TV for it. And Final Fantasy VII, but i had to pester my parents for years to get that. Oh and a mini-stereo, but that was about 10 years ago, too. Aside from that count watches, pullovers, clocks, perfumes, make up etc to the list. And coats. Loats of stuff i am not interested in the least. Instead i have to buy everything that is technical myself. And selling the gifts? You dont do that.

So, any alternatives? Yes. Telling them to stop giving you stuff for christmas. and birthdays of course, too. Because then you dont expect them to get something cool. And the disappointment is MUCH smaller.

a friggin chair....*grumbles*....

Nice Reflex-Zones

Yeah, right.

Note: this is the EU/German version of a rather well known online game... MMORPG more precisely.

EU. GERMAN.

Aquarium

Before my trip to the hospital i went to the zoo and aquarium, because my dad and I have won 4 tickets to go there. So i took my mum, brother and his friend there on a sunday to see what happened, since we all havent been there in quite a while.

Unfortunately i got bored of it very quickly, we have an animal park somewhere else in the city, which is much better, because you can have strolls around and it really is more of a park than a collection of animals, whereas the zoo just seems packed...

anyhow, i will just let the pictures speak:













Yepp, animal pictures. again. as if you have never seen any in your life ;)

What a fun night.

Saturday night i went to see Borat... a very recommendable movie btw. My friend and i went there for the prime time show, but as it turned out it was sold out already. But we gladly took the chance to go and see it in the late evening (10 pm). When we got the tickets, S. has seen a friend of hers, M., standing there too, and we went there to chat him up. Them actually, because he was with a friend, W., from Birmingham. Since they wanted to see Borat as well we asked them if they wanted to go to the late night show with us. M. was quite eager to do so, but W. kept complaining and complaining... whyever. At least he thought i was English, which was quite cool. Well. He also never smiled (apart from one situation), never got to the point but always tried to get all attention to him.
So, we thought about what to do to kill some time... S. and I decided to go to McDonalds and get some milkshake (we are just girls that need something sweet every now and again ;)) and M. didnt mind too much, whereas W. started to complain again how much he hates fast food places, fast food in general etc etc etc. gosh.
as we arrived at Mac and got our milkshakes the guys decided to head back to get the movie tickets and we went upstairs to drink and chat. Since W. was bothering me all the time before (he can talk quite a lot, usually just to show off how cool he is... moron) S. and I were gossipping quite a bit about how bad W. was and about... uh... other things. *grins roguishly* when the guys came back. Guess what W. had in his hands? A big pack of Dunkin Donuts. But fast food is shit, eh? The most annoying thing was his "listen listen listen listen" for aaages until we were not really interested anymore and then he really started to complain. And usually he even then never got to the point or just said something as interesting as "i had noodles and salad"... i mean... whoa. that surely is extremely important.
So well, after Mac he wanted to go to the casino. Us girls tried to convince him of it being a pretty bad idea but he was so keen on going there... well. S. and I went on a walk around the buildings, talking again. Then they got out (we were waiting first and they didnt see us at all, which was quite funny :D) and W. went on complaining to me about how bad it was and that they lost money and all that.
Back to the movies he noticed that our seats were not together. "boo". and he insisted on sitting together for some reason, whereas S. and I were glead about having the rest from him, and the film was quite awesome, as said before.

Oh, by the way, if you dont know english too well, then dont friggin go and watch the original version of a film if you need everything translated! Morons!

Outside again he was standing at a table, arms folded, looking dead serious... but as i greeted him with "Hey there, happy one" he smiled! yes! a real, genuine smile! one would have been able to believe that! and asked me about my favourite parts of the film (most funny parts) that no one else laughed about for example. We agreed that we loved the hinting on the Koran-thing, but then he kept nagging me for more scenes. Which i couldnt tell, just had the overall impression... There he was, sulking. but when i asked him, he couldnt name me any scenes either...

Back to the train (took ages to get there, thanks to W.) the cultural difference between English speaking countries (Americans are the same, really). M., S. and I were chatting in German for a moment, but it was really of no interest for W., so it wouldnt have changed anything if we talked in english. but it was a bit quicker for the other two to do it in German (I dont mind either, really) so well. In the train W. started to diss M. quite badly because he was talking in german.

Something along the lines "I am your guest, so you dont f*cking talk in German while i am there! That is just rude!" blablablablabla.. and he kept going on, getting louder and louder, while i started to build up some explosion material too... tried to have a go at him (because if we were visiting his country he would require US to speak english there because we were guests and had to fit in etc.) which he countered with "Who are you? Who are you? Who are you?" blabla (i asked him back).

If we werent in a train i would have started to show him his limits properly, but i didnt want to go down to his level on the train. In a quieter location, yes. On the train, no. But the other passengers were amused... Understandably.

Gosh, was he arrogant. I am sure he easily gets violent too....

Settling a score.

Disclaimer: to avoid revealing too much specific information on certain persons, i will call them A, B, C etc...

As some of you might remember, i'm doing martial arts. and as some others might recall i switched my teachers a little while ago. Now, in my opinion things only work out when you combine them, otherwise you are highly biased regarding the main aspect of the whole thing. While my former main teacher, A, minimises things as much as he can and tries to limit the teachings to a single form. This bit also sucks a little, because you dont get to choose "your" form. even if it doesnt matter too much in the end, everyone has his or her preferred form, and I quite like being able to choose. On the upside though when doing tui shou we learned to do it free-form. without any certain boundaries. which pleases me a lot.
so the new teacher, B, is trying to focus on teaching you a few more forms, so you can pick in the end, even if he does it in a certain order.
So, even if he is quite arrogant regarding his abilities (in my opinion you can be proud of having won some competitions, although he, if i recall correctly, never actually has won any, just got some good placements) you can learn quite a lot from him.
What pisses me off even more are those he calls "assistants". With one exception (the only problem with him is his posture, but at least he knows his flaws) they all think their abilities are so friggin great that they sort of forget they suck.
why they suck?
well, lets have a look at C for instance. She really thinks her MA abilities rock. But for example a big no-no is to have a hollow-back. noooow guess what she has, extremely...?
And she keeps talking about energetic aspects of that MA, but hell, no. Not her. She talks too much about things. And when she is supposed to _TEACH_ all she does is care about herself and mind her own business (like just practicing her own forms for the whole lesson). Even if you have a competition going on, you can still learn on your own, in your free time. Dont need to leave people, who pay for lessons, by themselves.

Not criticising to leave some by themselves and taking care of others, sometimes you cant do it differently. But she wasnt even doing that, instead she took out her mp3 player, turned it on an practiced. When D came in she was doing the same with him, but altogether still didnt care about the students (D is an assistant now too). Oh, added to her arrogance she claims to be overly spiritual. C'mon girl. get some sense.
So, lets head on to D. He did some Karate, and he usually does some fancy acrobatics these days... his posture is overly correct, he thinks he is using the whole energy bit as well (i mean, hello? i have been doing this for quite a few years now, and the whole chi bit is not too constant still... sometimes things work quite easily, but some days it takes loads of concentration to get at least a little bit usable. then it is not more than the last 5 minutes i can train properly. but he "use" Fajin throughout the forms, even when he just arrived to the lessons (late as usual). And his spirituality combined with an alternative lifestyle etc... horrendous. He is rather handsome, and i fell for him for a bit, but quite frankly he's just getting on my nerves these days. What should i do? Probably im going to ignore him and just get better.
Same regarding E. overly spiritual. He is one of those you expect to go to india for a while to find "God". Or gob, for that matter. He cant decide what sort of spiritual healing course he should do now. And he stinks. I mean, really. he does. As if he never has heard anything of deodorants. And educationally speaking he is a loser. As are F. and G. The only exception is H, but unfortunately i dont see him very often.
I highly respect A and H, even if, eventually, it felt as if A tried to slow me down quite a bit, i respect B, but the others i do not respect in the slightest.
Oh, there is someone else i like quite a bit in the course, but he is just an "ordinary" student. no assistant or anything. So it doesnt count.

Maybe i should switch again. Find another teacher. Someone who gets my true respect, meaning that it doesnt vanish after few months. *pissed off*

Oh and another reason for being pissed off is that B only strongly supports C - G, not so much H... for whatever reason.

(D has been doing this MA for little more than half a year now, and he knows 3 or 4 forms already. eh?)

Eskobar Gig@Magnet, Berlin - 1.11.2006

So i went to the eskobar gig last night, in Berlin :) I arrived about 50 minutes too early, but that actually was quite cool, because so i could take a picture of this wonderful thing:

AND sit down next to the monitor box on the stage. Yes, that's right, there was no fence, nothing. i could even climb on the stage if i wanted to. But i didnt - couldnt be arsed to do so. So within the remaining time until the gig was supposed to start i basically just sent text messages, played games and whatnot, just to kill time. Didnt bring any money with me (should have, because i should have got a CD by Cabezas when i could) so there was nothing else to do.

Then the first support band stormed the stage - Nice Boy Music - four guys from Hamburg playing some sort of BritPop, relaxed Rock, all that

't was a bit difficult initially, because, you know, the audience in berlin is a little bit difficult. Too much music around here, people aren't easily impressed, they just stand around, barely smile... I was dancing a bit, but since i took the photos i couldnt do that too much.

The bass player decided to smoke on the stage (as did some of the guitarists that night too), but about 5 minutes later he needed a new string for his bass. serves him right - but the smoke itself looked quite nice in the red light.
Nice Boy Music played for about an hour - in the first moment i was fearing that my ears were going to fall off (the short "test"tunes on the guitar hurt a lot) but it turned out to be alright, as long as they didnt cane the drums. Because then it was pure pain. But that only happened twice during the whole evening, so who am I to complain? :)

So yeah, Nice Boy Music, a band from Hamburg, worth checking out: Myspace-Page with some audio examples. Although they sound much better live. :)
Oh, if you wonder why my pictures are so red'ish: i didnt use the flashlight, because i dont like doing that. But there were three girls who kept spamming with flash light photography, it was soooooooooooooooooooo annoying. And that girl was always smiling so overly cute when she took a picture, as if she wanted to get one of the music, regardless which one.
However.
Next on stage (after about 15 minutes break) was Cabezas.
Patricio Cabezas is a spanish guy who came to Sweden when he was around 10 years old, and well, add Spanish fire to the fact that Swedish people must have some weird hormons in their cereals, making them awesome musicians, and you got Cabezas. Together with Daniel Gidlund, who he formed the band with, he managed to create some really nice layers of music, with only two instruments: voice (twice) and guitar (twice). In the aftermath i am sorry that i didnt take some money with me, since i should have bought the CD.

You can find some of his tracks on MySpace again, although they are not as minimalistic as the stage show: Clicky for the page. Still very pretty, i think. Both of them have really nice voices, and high skills regarding their skill to play the instruments. And the arrangements... they are gems.

So, yeah, it was an amazing gig, even if extremely short - they played for about 30 Minutes, just 6 or 7 songs, including a cover (i think it was Blue Suede Shoes. but then again it was some sort of a ballad. so please, dear readers, correct me if i'm mistaken).

And then... 15 minutes later the masters of disaster. Eskobar themselves coming on stage, right in front of me :) but, oh what a surprise, Cabezas playing the bass with Eskobar? i really didnt expect that. Cabezas and the lead singer of eskobar were all quite a bit shorter than i imagined they would be, but i guess size isn't everything. Daniel has such a crystal clear voice that always makes you dream away.. they started off with "Big Sleeper", which already prepared the assumption that they mixed old and new songs... and indeed, they played 20 songs, from all albums they have released so far.

Although the show was not as soft as one would have expected from the album, you really could consider that as rock. However, i can only say that i enjoyed it, post up some more pictures and some videolinks... (i recorded fours songs).

More pictures on my flickr stream

And the videos:
Eskobar - Whatever this town
Eskobar - Persona Gone Missing
Eskobar - Real Life
Eskobar - Love Strikes

Targeted Achievements.

It's been a while, i know, and i have been horribly busy. Didnt even play FFXI, my otherwise favourite game, in quite a while. However, I did quite a lot of sports, to lose some weight.

Even if it might sound rather obsessed, I will give you a short insight into the whole dilemma.

When i was a bit younger, and still on the pill, i gained so much that i ended up with 72 / 73 kg which made me look like a pig. I am 178 cm tall (that is 5'10"), i know that you will most likely say "wha, but that is still totally slim" and so on - believe me, i was not. And it felt horrible. So I did some sports -- and achieved nothing. Even if I kept eating a bit less than before (I changed nutrition and i did quite some sports, but it didnt help). As sad as it might sound, the only times when i managed to get rid of some was during my bulimic and my anorexic times. Usually the bulimia followed the anorexia, because i like food and cant stand not to eat anything at all, so it looked like the better option. Despite all those talks about "you get the calories immediately after swallowing down the food" etc. I got down to 67 with that.
Then i managed to control myself and get back to normal, plus - I dont know how, but I somehow got down to 60. Yay, this is where i liked myself most. not less, not more. However, then i went to the USA for 10 days, and believe it or not, gained 6 kg. It really is true what they say about the size of the food there. Unfortunately i never managed to get rid of it, just keep it, until i got to the hospital for the jaw surgery. Since you are basically just allowed to eat soup, and later mashed potatoes and yoghurt (which you need almost an hour for!) I lost enough to get back to the 60s and felt awesome.
Then the real food came again, and with it the weight - now i'm on 64 - 65 again... it is unbearable. Whatever I do (loads of sports) it seems to not work at all... Probably because i sometimes have to eat in the evenings, due to my full schedule during daytime.
So my goal is to get those 4 - 5 kg down by the end of this year, the latest. Rather sooner than later....then i need to get something else done (nothing bad) and everything's good.

And also i apparently fulfill every bit of the AAD(H)D checklist from the english wikipedia website. Worrying? Yes, but only because someone listed the characteristics of my life without letting me know first. But it'd also explain the eating habit obsession (see the german wikipedia).  It also explains why i keep being in some sort of emotional distress when i get pre-surgery-narcotics... like what happened last year (see previous post).
So, i have never seen a doctor about this. And i am most likely never going to, they would just laugh at me anyways. And hey, why be fixed when it is so extremely awesome to be a free spirit, even when you get heavy mood swings and are highly disorganised? You breathe in life, you are more sensitive than most people, you learn many different things because most things interest you... actually everything does, it is just a matter of how well for example the articles you inhale are being written.

Why is it good for me to know that it might be AADHD? I can tell the nurse in the hospital in december to not give me this pill.

Singalong.

Go, try it! http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2387173299273855247&q=loituma

Nuapurista kuulu se polokan tahti jalakani pohjii kutkutti.

Ievan äiti se tyttöösä vahti vaan kyllähän Ieva sen jutkutti,

sillä ei meitä silloin kiellot haittaa kun myö tanssimme laiasta laitaan.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

Ievan suu oli vehnäsellä ko immeiset onnee toevotti.

Peä oli märkänä jokaisella ja viulu se vinku ja voevotti.

Ei tätä poikoo märkyys haittaa sillon ko laskoo laiasta laitaan.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

Ievan äiti se kammarissa virsiä veisata huijjuutti,

kun tämä poika naapurissa ämmän tyttöä nuijjuutti.

Eikä tätä poikoo ämmät haittaa sillon ko laskoo laiasta laitaan.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

Hilli gotte hilli gotte hilli balle hilla hilli gotte hilli gotte hilli bamba

jalli golli jalla dalli dulli jalla tilli talli tilli talli tilli tanda.

Halli dulli jalla tilli dulli dalla tilli tilli tilli tilli tilli tilli dalla

halli dulli tilli talli jalla dijalla tilli dalli talli dalli helanda.

Rimpa diralla ribi dalli ralla rumpa dirumpa ribidambu

janka rinka rip tabi dabalan tulli tulli rallan tibirandu.

Ja zup zob baridik bari gon lan lik barili lan diz dan du

la libidabi dala rup ba di rubi ra gan buri kan buck aja gidi gan gu.

Rak zuki za ja ribi da bidin la biriz dan din lan den lan do

a birik kapita barik bari baribiribiribiris den den lan do.

Jaba dillas dillan de ja do adabedabedabe dubedabe du ja bum

badis dan din las den lan do badake dake dake du du de ja do.

Siellä oli lystiä soiton jäläkeen sain minä kerran sytkyyttee.

Kottiin ko mäntii ni ämmä se riitelj ja Ieva jo alako nyyhkyytteek.

Minä sanon Ievalle mitäpä se haittaa laskemma vielähi laiasta laitaa.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

Muorille sanon jotta tukkee suusi en ruppee sun terveyttäs takkoomaa.

Terveenä peäset ku korjoot luusi ja määt siitä murjuus makkoomaa.

Ei tätä poikoo hellyys haittaa ko akkoja huhkii laiasta laitaan.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

Sen minä sanon jotta purra pittää ei mua niin voan nielasta.

Suat männä ite vaikka lännestä ittään vaan minä en luovu Ievasta,

sillä ei tätä poikoo kainous haittaa sillon ko tanssii laiasta laitaan.

Salivili hipput tupput täppyt äppyt tipput hilijalleen.

 

Why..

why is it always during the oddest times of day or night that you
actually really need someone to take you into his or her arms and tell
you everythings gonna be alright? Usually when you cant even call anyone
and at least ask that person to say so?

I already wrote this article once more, a bit earlier. but opera started
bitching, so i am assuming it does not want to have the rest published.

One thing though.
I assume you know that before you have a surgery under general
anaesthetics you usually get some kind of pill to calm you down and to
prevent emotional stress because of fear (of what might happen). Did you
know that on some people this pill has the opposite effect? Meaning that
you basically go through an emotional hell?
Next time, i will decline taking that pill... it felt like .. all
emotions being let out at once, being so overwhelming - so scary - that
you just cant help but cry. A LOT. Severely. The nurses had quite a bad
job with calming me down, i dont know why they havent just put me to
sleep - i was on the table already anyways! (which made it no better.
but hey, i have seen the inside of the surgery room :))
The surgery this year (December again I reckon) will be very similar.
And about as dangerous, they can (for some reason, since they wont break
my skull this time) damage the same nerves, they can screw up my teeth,
etc etc. Even if it will be shorter and sparing the lymphatic drainage.
Ever had one of those? They are bearable - until they have to be
removed. My doc did it without removing the vacuum first.
those 20 seconds felt like 20 minutes, believe me ;)

But apart from that.. i am a very tough and strong girl. Honest.

Some more contemporary art

I am too tired for writing any texts. However, check out his portfolio on http://www.michael-latimer.com/
If you fancy some tees, then go to http://www.lowercaseindustry.com/ and check out his products... no i dont get any money, even if i would quite like to have the Medium CrossOff Tee .
On the other hand, i still wanna have this shirt as well :D gotta see about my new job! :)

You know him. I know you do. This is the Vitruvian Man by DaVinci. Now, imagine this picture being used in Biology classes do demonstrate the location of human organs.
Apparently the lecturer makes her students even draw the picture into their sketchbooks as well, so they can sort of "live" the idea.... go to this page and scroll down a little

 

Time Curtain

http://www.sonerozenc.com/index1.htm
Ever wondered what time it is when you passed through a door in your flat?
Well, now you'll know :)

3D Commercials

This time i dont mean the kind of commercials that have a giant football sticking out of a building. Actually, it is just the ordinary kind of street ads you are used to, simply going around a corner and implementing this into the whole design. Quite cool actually; for more pics, please click on the picture below:

(Street) Art 2.0

I bet you all know the kind of streetart that involves Graffiti or chalk, right? or some sorts of statues and all the likes.

So, it is time to move on and find a new fancy style of street art which is even sort of legal (partly), so i want to present you a short but sweet list of new ways to make streetart:

a) Arty Bike Lanes - this one is actually legal in this case, the court ruled that this particular guy was allowed to continue designing bike lanes
b) Reverse Graffiti Art - This seems to be legal as well, oh and it is sort of my personal favourite. Despite him advertising UK Big Brother which many people seem to dislike (me too, kinda, but he does his own stuff this way too), it is kinda cool to make graffiti by simply _cleaning_ the buildings... you know, it is like little children writing stuff with their fingers on dusty windows. And if you wanna remove it, just clean the rest of the building.
c) LED Throwies - Okay, this i kinda expensive. And sort of lame. But it is definitely legal (because easy to remove), and furthermore if you wanna pimp your own home then just go for it :D (the surface has to be ferromagnetic in order to hold the throwies)
d) Glowing fabrics - Thank Philips for this gorgeous invention or well, development. Not exactly street art as it is, but you can surely make some with that... just imagine the possibilities...!!!! :)

Site Feed, old posts, new fun :)

As you might have noticed (or not, since i tried to keep the same layout - MIGHT change it. but that is subject to free time) i switched the blogger software to Blogger beta. It doesn't only offer labels, which are probably something like tags, but also comment feeds etc.
Does anyone ever use comment feeds? and are there feeds that actually merge the entries and comments?
Oh, please update your site feeds if you are using an RSS reader. you can find the feed address on the bottom of this page....
If you want to read through my old blog:
you can find it here, i probably wont update it though. The Site feed for the old blog changed to http://lost-in-cold-fire.blogspot.com/atom.xml ...